The Beginning of the End of The Beginning, woah.
Faster than a college parking lot fills up before 9AM classes start, I’m having a Wild, Wild West style staredown with my senior. year. of. college. Excuse me? Sometimes I feel like college is winning. It seems like just yesterday I was on the sidelines of my high school football field, waving pom-poms in the air, and now I don’t even know if I could do a cartwheel if I wanted. Isn’t it funny how day to day, nothing changes and then everything is suddenly different? (yes, I’m definitely talking about my flexibility.)
They say that hindsight is 20/20, and I am sitting here with a cooling cup of coffee, typing this, to say that they are so right, even though I’m not quite sure who “they” are. If I could sit down with myself from just four years ago, there is so much I would tell her. Boy, oh, boy. These past few years have taught me more about myself than I ever though I could learn, so I just can’t wait to see where I’ll be four years from now. Hopefully I’m still funny. Okay, but seriously.
Senior year is scary: I’ll go on and say it. I don’t know what I’ll do when I can’t separate my year into semesters or complain to an advisor that I still don’t know what I’m going to do with my life. I’ve been so in my head, thinking about my next step, and as fun as exploring possibilities sounds and seems, it’s terrifying.
In the mix of stressing out about how I’ll avoid being homeless after college, God whispered something to my soul, and I just feel the real need to shout it out really loud for you: BE STILL, LISTEN FOR INSTRUCTION. I had to go all caps because every single study I’ve done and devotion that I’ve read has led me back to that one point for an entire month. I’m not kidding.
We don’t have to have it all lined up and figured out quite yet. Because for those of us in God, His purpose is so loud and so unavoidable and so wonderful. You cannot miss it. You cannot be unqualified for it because His purpose for you is exactly what all of God’s work in you is meant to do. Imagine the greatest thing you would ever want to accomplish, and it pales in comparison for what your King has in store for you. It’s that popular saying come to truth: “THIS IS WHAT YOU WERE BORN TO DO.”
For those who don’t know me that well, I’ll disclose that I love to follow famous people and royalty, so to think that my purpose is of Royal decree is so cool. All there is to do is listen wait for it. I feel like a puppy, and God has the frisbee. I’m just sitting at His feet, eagerly waiting for Him to throw it to me so I can go chase it as fast as I possibly can.
Senior year is a really up-in-the air year for a lot of people. It’s a middle ground with a lot of what-ifs, but the what-ifs are a lot less scary if we give the “what-ifs” to the LITERAL CREATOR OF TIME. So, seriously, what time is my job application due?